Update

Supposed to be in recovery, but its hell, hating it so much. Still so stressed out been cutting and purging. Kind of like the release that i got from cutting makes me want to go deeper, might try that tonight. Eating is ok i guess, but i guesss its more the fact that i don't want to be on anything stronger in terms of meds. I know i've been neglecting this place but i'll be back in about 3-4 weeks. Have to finish of my final year and try and find a job, if my brother will ever get to proof reading/fixing my cover letters for me.

Short Update

Hey my fellow bloggers,

Just wanted to let you know that i'm alive and ok. Just trying to take care of myself and working with my medical team to get better. Hopefully once things have calmed down or stabilized i will return to my blogging. 

Dear fellow Bloggers.....

I might have to take a break from blogging/reading blogs as well its not helping with mood and thoughts. My T seriously thinks that i need to stop until I'm in a better place/mindset because it is on;y helping to perpetuate the SU thoughts, and just further emerse myself in this world. Not sure what my decisions is going to be yet, as i might just track my mood for the next couple of days and see how i feel, as i might still need an outlet for these thoughts not sure. But she strongly recommended that i stop blogging for a while and just focus on staying out of trouble and keeping my thoughts to just that thoughts rather than actions.... I guess just finding it hard to let go of this world/community of bloggers I'm so fond of and i'd hate to not be there for you guys when you're all going through so much.