Sunday, January 23, 2011
First Impressions
Hello my fellow bloggers, first of all i just wanted to say thank you to all those who follow me and an extra special thanks for everyone who leaves comments. It's nice to see other reading and commenting. I just realized that to many of you i may come off as this whiny depressed kid, and let me tell you that is definitely not who i am. Well first of all i'm not kid, as i'm currently 21 so i guess I'm technically a young adult, so a young woman, but that's a debate for another day lol. I just wanted to say this, there are a lot of things that i am thankful for in my life, and i've been through a lot over the years and I've had to move so many times in my life (with both good and bad experiences) but i'm very thankful for everything my parents have done for me in my life and all the sacrifices they have had to make on our behalf and i don't grudge them at all for the decisions they made at the time. But this last year has been really hard for me, with a major relationship ( my first real relationship on more than one level or rather in more than one way) and it hurt, and i'm still trying to heal from that. Also I've been cursed with a pretty good memory when it comes to remembering things that are insignificant and I'm very good at memorizing or remembering exact words and sentences people used in conversation, but the really important stuff, all the childhood memories, for the most part for me are all blured. I had a great childhood for the most part but i was SA by a couple of my cousins when i was younger and the negative reaction of my mom when she found out has left some irreversible damage and i don't blame her for reacting the way she did because the way she found out was complicated and she didn't get the full picture until the day after she reacted. What's my point in this post?? Well I'm a fun loving person usually, but right now I'm just buried under a shit load of depression and anger and frustrating and ED, so my cherry normal self isn't showing up. I shall try to maybe discuss some less heavy subjects sometimes, maybe crack a joke here and there and just make this blog a true reflection of who i am rather than my "dark side"
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I know what you mean about thinking other people might think you come across whiny or depressed or whatever. I often think that about myself, especially because I tend to only write down my feelings when I am either very high or very low. From my blog one might think I'm bipolar!
But anyway, you don't come across like that. Everybody has down times and sometimes they last longer than others, but that's okay. The important thing is to just pick yourself up and keep going. :)
Also... you're 21 same as me! Well I'll be 21 in 2 weeks so I guess it counts. :)
Take care lovely.
xxx
It's okay, sometimes you need to be dark to remember just how bright the light is! And don't rush the cheery part of you, let it come out all on it's own that way your happiness doesn't feel forced. And waiting for the happiness is going to be long and boring and scary but it will come and it will feel like living all over again when it does:)
It's alright, I didn't get the impression that you were a whiny depressed kid! :P Blogs are a good way to express yourself and in some ways that might mean writing things that are not about kittens and roses. Or should I say moses eating kitten noses. Lol. Okay, okay.
Still, it's nice to know a little more about you. I'm sorry you've had to go through all this horrible stuff :( I hope things get better for you xxx
I don't think your whiny and depressed all the time in fact in your posts you can tell there is that cherry person just waiting to come out! and I can't wait for her :)
To answer your question on where i live in Ontario (I live in London Ontario )
I can't find a follow button for your blog *cries*.
Take care xx
Thanks for all the lovely comments guys i really appreciate it.
Lis the follow button its at the top of my blog in the left hand corner...
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