Growing Frustrations.....

Still here still hanging on, don't know if I'll ever be able to live for myself and what i want to do. Have so much to do but no motivation. Getting super stressed out about things, mainly school. Misread a due date so i have one less day than i thought i did, as well as having to keep up with the discussions for that class. feeling like I'm buried and its like the more i get done the more buried i get. Can't seem to find a way out, getting frustrated, irritated, tired and so close to breaking down completely to shutting everyone and everything out... i want to crawl into a hole and hide till all this is over. Maybe it will be better to just end it all? End this misery? Ahhhhh fuckkkkk.... getting anxious not a good feeling at all... being doing so good at keeping feelings at bay this term and would like to keep it that way...