Sluggish Tuesday

Thanks for the comments, i know you're right. I emailed my T and i explained to her that honestly i want to get help that i'm just scared. Scared of failing, scared of myself and what it might mean, and i'm scared of labeling myself as having an eating disorder cause then it means i'm really sick and its not just all in my head. Didn't get much sleep last night, went to bed at 2am, and had some really messed up dreams about Eating Disorders. Also took a little too many laxative pills, i mean there was about 5hrs between the 2 sets but i don't think my tummy is to happy with me. So going to try and take it easy on it today, will start with some tea and see how my tummy feels before i attempt to eat anything. Feeling weird, had the strangest talk with my friend last night, laughed a lot it was funny and good, but also sad when i look back on the conversation cause it was not things we were supposed to be laughing about. But it was nice to laugh period. Tired don't want to go to class but i'm already up so might as well, and its only one class and it will help me decide what i want to write on for the assignment tomorrow and then i can come home and nap, or go to bed early. Either way i need to go to class and i've already done the reading so might as well right? Tomorrow is a different story considering skipping the whole day and then just coming for the gym but i know if won't get anything done if i stay home and time goes quicker when i'm at uni. Will hopefully get a response back from my T either today or tomorrow so it will be interesting to see what if anything she says/thinks.